December 2021 Monthly Review

thorns

• was exposed to COVID by someone who showed up to an outdoor party knowing they had been exposed
• still feeling left out from a theater show that a group remounted without me
• SOCIAL ANXIETY

roses

• taught TS Intro Python Course (cohort was very lovely)
• UWSA Retreat, getting more involved in Undoing White Supremacy Austin leadership
• saw my first live shows since pandemic start
• dancing and witchy shit with Minx + Muse
• weekly hangouts with Diane
• interviews for computational communication professor search committee
• performed on stage for first time since pandemic (Maestro)
• weekly rpgs with Peter, Heath, and Marc
• daily walks
• daily naps
• hired by UT to do STEMprov again
• taught TS Intermediate Python Course (many people signed up especially because Jo and I were teaching it)
• Christmas at Shannon and Gus’s house
• inner child work
• thrift store shopping with Danielle and giving myself permission to love and hate clothing
• decided on direction for twitter analysis
• revised race evasive manuscript according to last(?) edits from coauthors and sent it out to get second opinions
• submitted a proposal to ATHE (my first theater conference)
• got my covid booster shot and my allergy shot

buds

• friendship with Scarlett
• friendship with Danielle
• prioritizing resting
• realizing I am probably autistic and reframing so many things
• transcribing and analyzing STEM graduate student interviews about science communication

reflections on last month from journals and morning pages (lessons, themes, emotions)

• REST
• noticing how my own stories cause me stress
• trusting other people (in collaborations, in friendships to let me know if they are upset)
• publishing pipeline new system for writing practice
• vulnerability of getting feedback on projects I care about
• being open to being wrong, to being transformed
• making new friends (Danielle and Scarlett)
• trying to show up to stuff/ trying not to overbook myself
• performed on stage for first time since pandemic — it didn’t feel good for many reasons
• it’s probably not personal! it’s probably not about me!
• working on my body image stuff and internalized fatphobia
• getting excited about improv again by talking to people that want to explore beyond what is usually done in Austin theaters
• walking and napping everyday really making my routine more lush
• taking initiative and positive persistance
• (starting to) come to terms with being autistic
• permission to have fun
• inner child work
• having difficulty getting excited about upcoming travel knowing it will likely be cancelled :(
• Marc being sweet to me, making me coffee in the morning
• great sex with Marc
• being more intentional about desire with Marc (intimacy and security have been wonderful during pandemic but I wonder about desire)
• resisting the urgency of the world, of academia and slowing down
• enjoying making new friends that have done their inner work
• working on my routines, especially my evening one
• struggling with getting my motorcycle up and running (skills gap)
• trying out an intermediate pole class again and really enjoying a course that stretches my skills (mixed in with other ones that I can just feel sensual in)
• seeking more ease by waking up when it feels more natural (8am) but missing being awake before the world is
• word of mouth game is strong for STEMprov — UT hired me again
• lowering the friction on stuff while also preserving my spoons
• dressing up and looking hot going out

media consumed in the last month

films

• The Matrix Resurrections

tv

• The Owl House Season 2
• The Book of Boba Fett (Episode 1)

books

• Sacred Rest: Recover Your Life, Renew Your Energy, Restore Your Sanity
• Slow Professor: Challenging the Culture of Speed in the Academy
• Witches, Witch-Hunting, and Women
• Sex Magicians: The Lives and Spiritual Practices of Paschal Beverly Randolph, Aleister Crowley, Jack Parsons, Marjorie Cameron, Anton LaVey, and Others
• Recovery of Your Inner Child: The Highly Acclaimed Method for Liberating Your Inner Self
• Becoming Dangerous: Witchy Femmes, Queer Conjurers and Magical Rebels on Summoning the Power to Resist
• Destinations of a Lifetime: 225 of the World’s Most Amazing Places
• Rest: Why You Get More Done When You Work Less
• Show Your Work!: 10 Ways to Share Your Creativity and Get Discovered
• The Coming Plague: Newly Emerging Diseases in a World Out of Balance
• Things No One Will Tell Fat Girls: A Handbook for Unapologetic Living
• Spinning Silver
• Bit by Bit: Social Research in the Digital Age

music

• Vijay Iyer
• Arooj Aftab
• Nala Sinephro
• Claire Rousay
• Erika de Casier
• Yasmin Williams
• Wet Leg
• PinkPantheress
• Bachelor
• Yves Tumor
• Arca

theater

• The Quest
• From Way Downtown at Fallout
• Bah Humbug

board games/rpgs

• The Quiet Year
• CBR+PNK

MOOCS/youtube

• Feminist Social Media
• Ask an Autistic
• Faculty Diversity Development