March 2022 Monthly Review

[this is for my own accountability, feel free to reach out if you’d like to learn more about something]

thorns

• recovery struggles
• vacation friction (location, etc.)
• struggles with media deprivation
• worries about academic job search and having to hide parts of myself — I never want to abandon myself for academia again

roses

• quality time with Marc
• six flags trip
• beach trip
• very productive!
• birding on the boardwalk
• climate scifi
• healing through seduction
• saying “no” to stuff
• Kimine’s writing group
• teaching STEMprov in person for the first time in years

buds

• rejoining Tempest and getting coaching
• going to a psychiatrist for my anxiety

themes from last month from journals and morning pages

• time is my most precious resource
• I am not the center of the world, but I should be the center of my world
• questioning my money narratives
• how much of my time am I tithing and what is that worth?
• making changes to my home environment for my creativity
• being willing to sit with not knowing, emotions and understanding sometimes come much later
• delayed emotional processing
• media deprivation
• seeking out rest and the “fuck it” switch but not really sure how to do that in healthy ways
• working with my fear of visibility
• metabolizing painful stuff
• exhaustion
• bringing in more ritual and mindfulness
• feeling less jaded about Austin now that I’m going to be moving away in about a year (but still wanting to leave)
• feeling grateful I never fit in at The Hideout because it meant I had to do my own thing to be true to myself (STEMprov)
• working on my perfectionism and workaholism

media consumed in the last month

tv

• Schitt’s Creek (rewatch)

books

• Monstress, Vol. 6: The Vow
• The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck: How to Stop Spending Time You Don’t Have with People You Don’t Like Doing Things You Don’t Want to Do
• How We Show Up: Reclaiming Family, Friendship, and Community
• The Color of Earth
• The Color of Water
• The Color of Heaven
• Ritual: Power, Healing and Community
• What You Do Is Who You Are: How to Create Your Business Culture
• The Wicked + Divine (entire series)
• Tarot for Change: Using the Cards for Self-Care, Acceptance, and Growth
• The Science of Trust: Emotional Attunement for Couples
• The Tailored Brain: From Ketamine, to Keto, to Companionship, A User’s Guide to Feeling Better and Thinking Smarter
• Machinehood
• Twitter for Scientists

board games/rpgs

• The Between